Wednesday, February 22, 2012
UNGRATEFUL !
see that title up there ?! yeah , i'm MAD . so EFFIN MAD . because some people just don't or NEVER opened their eyes to anything . ehh , shiatz . really tired with all this . urgh . why can't you open your FUCKING MIND and try to be mature for once ?? what ? is it too humiliating ? if it is , then SORRY it's my bad . i FUCKING promise that i won't do that ever again . FUCK . FUCK . FUCK . trying to be nice but all you got is SHIT .
SKYSCRAPER
i never realise this song was so deep with meanings . once i know that this song meant something , i can't stop raping the replay button . it's just so , perfect . i like this part the most ;
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper .
this song was by Demi Lovato . i never really like her though but this song are one of my favourites :) .
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper .
this song was by Demi Lovato . i never really like her though but this song are one of my favourites :) .
Sunday, February 12, 2012
Zain? Liam? Ziam :D
awwww , thanks for the cute picture dear ! i REALLY like it :D . but unfortunately when i clicked to save it , i can't :( . poor me . about Prince Charming , pray for us so we may find our way someday . but thanks again . you really are one of the bestest friend :) .
True friends remember us in every situation and accept our imperfection :) .
True friends remember us in every situation and accept our imperfection :) .
SWAG
see that title ? yeah , i'm talkin' bout Cher Lloyd . she really got swagggg man . you should listen to her songs . she turn you up like , WOW . credits to Swagger Jagger and With Ur Love ft. Mike Posner . favourite *thumbs up* .
but that's not just what i wanna say . i won't say anything about what happened in my life , cuz it's awesomely boring . and something leak somewhere . idk where and why . *sigh* actually , i don't know what i'm gonna post . i just felt bored and lonely . EVA IS A LONER . forever alone . don't you pity meee *giving a puppy face* ? i want someone . like really . sometimes i feel that i can survive being a loner , but sometimes i just feel i need that special someone . i must be lying if i said that i don't care about my ex anymore , that's a sin . i didn't get over her yet . or maybe can't . why oh why ? and i tell you guys , i DO get jealous when i see those sweet couple outside dating freely . like ==' i want that tooooo :( . damn it . just so you know , Prince Charming got a girlfriend . cool rite ? and i'm the stupid one here can't get over a crush that's in a relationship with someone else . the most unluckiest human on earth ------> ME .
but that's not just what i wanna say . i won't say anything about what happened in my life , cuz it's awesomely boring . and something leak somewhere . idk where and why . *sigh* actually , i don't know what i'm gonna post . i just felt bored and lonely . EVA IS A LONER . forever alone . don't you pity meee *giving a puppy face* ? i want someone . like really . sometimes i feel that i can survive being a loner , but sometimes i just feel i need that special someone . i must be lying if i said that i don't care about my ex anymore , that's a sin . i didn't get over her yet . or maybe can't . why oh why ? and i tell you guys , i DO get jealous when i see those sweet couple outside dating freely . like ==' i want that tooooo :( . damn it . just so you know , Prince Charming got a girlfriend . cool rite ? and i'm the stupid one here can't get over a crush that's in a relationship with someone else . the most unluckiest human on earth ------> ME .
Saturday, February 11, 2012
IT'S SUNDAY
it's the end of the week . meaning tomorrow is school day . what the ... ? uhm well , i can't wait for the moment i'll leave school . no waking up early , nobody can disturb my sleep , and i can do whatever i want . woo-hoo :D ! isn't that awesome ? but some say you're gonna miss school after that and wishing you were schooling again . you can say that to my homework ==' .
so i guess , busy studying huh :) ? *wink . keep it up . hope you will pass in your final exam . fighting !
so i guess , busy studying huh :) ? *wink . keep it up . hope you will pass in your final exam . fighting !
Thursday, February 9, 2012
JUST SMILE .
well , what can i say . everything had gone really wrong and pretty impossible to fix anymore . all i can do is just smile to all the crap that's keep happening on and off . i don't know what to say again cuz this is not the first time it happened and i'm kinda bored with all this . i don't care anymore . i'll go through anything . even it's the toughest thing to do . funny how people can just jump into their own assumption without bothering what's actually happening . i do consider you as my friend , and if you really are , you should understand what have i gone through . people can simply say they understand us , they know how we feel , but the one that truly feel it , is just ourselves , not them . yes , i'm a kid . so what ? saying that won't make you any older than me . what counts is the heart . i'm dissapointed cuz the ones that i thought was the nicest one was actually the bad ones .
There's a story behind every person. There's a reason why they're the way they are. Think about that before you judge .
There's a story behind every person. There's a reason why they're the way they are. Think about that before you judge .
HOLLA PEEPS :)
it's been AGES since i haven't post anything on my bloggie . time and situation won't let me . i'm sorry . i'll make it up to you kayy :) ? ( it's gonna be the longest post everrr )
hm . idk where to start . there's so many things happened lately . i mean it . MANY THINGS HAPPENED . so i have to tell you all that i'm officially single . yeah , and it fucking sucks . it ain't easy trying to pretend to hate someone when you don't . maybe i do hate you , a little , kinda . argh . how can i simply hate you after this whole 11-month-relationship ? we're about a year , just 5 days away . 14 February 2012 , on VALENTINE . this year , i'd be a loner . a real loner . hard to accept it . i've been wanting this relationship to reach a year for like all the time , but it didn't happen and never will be .
so my acting really works and everyone thinks that i'm a happy-me again . nobody knows how i really am inside . this year is a total zero for me . i have no special someone , i have no bestfriend , i have nothing . even my family , they're all with their own lives . i'm on my own .
my mother ; she's busy doing her things , she always does but idk what actually she's doing .
my sister ; she's busy with work now and we hardly talk .
i feel empty . i just be friends with my dreams . they're the only thing that had been nice to me . for now . hm .
about YOU :
after the havoc , we've been farrrrr apart . i didn't receive text from her , she didn't reply my posts on facebook . none . but i don't know either what happened to her . maybe she's been grounded . no internet . how about handphone ? maybe she forgot my number or never even memorise it or she's not allowed having phone calls or text anyone anymore . i don't know . everything's a maybe .
i'm confused whether to wait for her or just get over her . i love her . i really do . but i can't deny i'm hurt too . after all the things that we've gone through together , i just can't take it when she cheated on me . and i just know about it long after we've broke up from someone who i thought i never talk to ( i mean, chat to -.-' ) . i've trusted you , but you broke that trust . i admit , i do have a crush on someone . and you know about it . who i crushed for and why . but you ? you told me that you were just friends but i know you liked her . still , you're denying . she's hot , any person could simply fall for her but not you . if you really love me , you won't do that . can you tell how i'm dying when i know that you've been wanting her eventhough you know she's in a relationship with MAC ? what is that ? maybe you don't know why i post " FUCK YOU " on your wall , so this is it . i am ready to forgive you after the incident coz i know you never wanted it that way too , it all happened to fast for us to fix it . but when i know about you and -should i mention her name ? Rachel- , i hate you . i hate you for betraying me , i hate you for breaking my trust , i hate you for not telling me about it , i hate you for not believing me .
another one , that Bella whatever girl . remember the day when we have our -tell the truth- moment ? when you told me that you ask her if she wants to have a relationship with you ? it hurts like shit . if you do know me , you should know that i'm faking my smile and i laugh like a donkey cuz it ain't real -.-" . when we broke up the other day , after a fews days you changed your profile picture to hers . haven't it hurt me already ? but you never knew . all in your thoughts were , " she's having her crush , so why can't i have one too ? " that is totally wrong . CRUSH and LIKE are two different things . and and and , you even keep her pictures in your phone . luckily i phone-check you or else i'd be the stupid one who didn't know that you're head over heels for her . and you didn't keep one , you kept TWO of 'em . now you're saying that you didn't even think wanna flirt with that girl , you're just helping her with her pk , she's like a sister to you and your bestfriend ? you don't flirt your bestfriend or sister dear . f.y.i , i never text or call with my crush , we never had gone out together . i confess to her that i had a crush on her but nothing happened right ? she even treat me like i never exist . but that's okay , like i said to her , i'm not asking her to just like or love me . that's practically CRUSHing someone . but you went out with Bella whatever , texted her and maybe call her sometimes . what's that ? you tell me .
but i'm just a normal person . even God forgive His people , who am i to judge ? i forgive you . i make mistakes too , and i'm sorry for that . and if you're reading this , i love you . i never even hate you and i don't blame you for what happened . maybe it's just because we're not meant for each other . but that doesn't change anything . my love for you is eternal . and what i post now about ur GF's , are the things that i didn't have the chance to tell you . but here it is , i've said it . so i hope that you'll understand as much as i understand ur situation rite now .
what she said that changed my mind ;
I miss Eva a lot , Aj . i keep hugging her shirt . Wishing i could talk to her again . Wishing could turn back to the time where me and her still together. But now she hates me. She hates me a lot. I think about her smpai i sakit kepala. I keep asking is she fine right now, how is she . I wanna call n text her but i can't coz i want her to forget about me. If i come back to her life, dia hanya akan merana. Hidup dia tidak akan tenang. And what her sister told me was right, i shouldn't contact her anymore coz all she ever get from me is pain. Her sister told me not to contact her anymore, so i will even it hurt so fucking much. I hope she'll forgive me someday .
hm . idk where to start . there's so many things happened lately . i mean it . MANY THINGS HAPPENED . so i have to tell you all that i'm officially single . yeah , and it fucking sucks . it ain't easy trying to pretend to hate someone when you don't . maybe i do hate you , a little , kinda . argh . how can i simply hate you after this whole 11-month-relationship ? we're about a year , just 5 days away . 14 February 2012 , on VALENTINE . this year , i'd be a loner . a real loner . hard to accept it . i've been wanting this relationship to reach a year for like all the time , but it didn't happen and never will be .
so my acting really works and everyone thinks that i'm a happy-me again . nobody knows how i really am inside . this year is a total zero for me . i have no special someone , i have no bestfriend , i have nothing . even my family , they're all with their own lives . i'm on my own .
my mother ; she's busy doing her things , she always does but idk what actually she's doing .
my sister ; she's busy with work now and we hardly talk .
i feel empty . i just be friends with my dreams . they're the only thing that had been nice to me . for now . hm .
about YOU :
after the havoc , we've been farrrrr apart . i didn't receive text from her , she didn't reply my posts on facebook . none . but i don't know either what happened to her . maybe she's been grounded . no internet . how about handphone ? maybe she forgot my number or never even memorise it or she's not allowed having phone calls or text anyone anymore . i don't know . everything's a maybe .
i'm confused whether to wait for her or just get over her . i love her . i really do . but i can't deny i'm hurt too . after all the things that we've gone through together , i just can't take it when she cheated on me . and i just know about it long after we've broke up from someone who i thought i never talk to ( i mean, chat to -.-' ) . i've trusted you , but you broke that trust . i admit , i do have a crush on someone . and you know about it . who i crushed for and why . but you ? you told me that you were just friends but i know you liked her . still , you're denying . she's hot , any person could simply fall for her but not you . if you really love me , you won't do that . can you tell how i'm dying when i know that you've been wanting her eventhough you know she's in a relationship with MAC ? what is that ? maybe you don't know why i post " FUCK YOU " on your wall , so this is it . i am ready to forgive you after the incident coz i know you never wanted it that way too , it all happened to fast for us to fix it . but when i know about you and -should i mention her name ? Rachel- , i hate you . i hate you for betraying me , i hate you for breaking my trust , i hate you for not telling me about it , i hate you for not believing me .
another one , that Bella whatever girl . remember the day when we have our -tell the truth- moment ? when you told me that you ask her if she wants to have a relationship with you ? it hurts like shit . if you do know me , you should know that i'm faking my smile and i laugh like a donkey cuz it ain't real -.-" . when we broke up the other day , after a fews days you changed your profile picture to hers . haven't it hurt me already ? but you never knew . all in your thoughts were , " she's having her crush , so why can't i have one too ? " that is totally wrong . CRUSH and LIKE are two different things . and and and , you even keep her pictures in your phone . luckily i phone-check you or else i'd be the stupid one who didn't know that you're head over heels for her . and you didn't keep one , you kept TWO of 'em . now you're saying that you didn't even think wanna flirt with that girl , you're just helping her with her pk , she's like a sister to you and your bestfriend ? you don't flirt your bestfriend or sister dear . f.y.i , i never text or call with my crush , we never had gone out together . i confess to her that i had a crush on her but nothing happened right ? she even treat me like i never exist . but that's okay , like i said to her , i'm not asking her to just like or love me . that's practically CRUSHing someone . but you went out with Bella whatever , texted her and maybe call her sometimes . what's that ? you tell me .
but i'm just a normal person . even God forgive His people , who am i to judge ? i forgive you . i make mistakes too , and i'm sorry for that . and if you're reading this , i love you . i never even hate you and i don't blame you for what happened . maybe it's just because we're not meant for each other . but that doesn't change anything . my love for you is eternal . and what i post now about ur GF's , are the things that i didn't have the chance to tell you . but here it is , i've said it . so i hope that you'll understand as much as i understand ur situation rite now .
what she said that changed my mind ;
I miss Eva a lot , Aj . i keep hugging her shirt . Wishing i could talk to her again . Wishing could turn back to the time where me and her still together. But now she hates me. She hates me a lot. I think about her smpai i sakit kepala. I keep asking is she fine right now, how is she . I wanna call n text her but i can't coz i want her to forget about me. If i come back to her life, dia hanya akan merana. Hidup dia tidak akan tenang. And what her sister told me was right, i shouldn't contact her anymore coz all she ever get from me is pain. Her sister told me not to contact her anymore, so i will even it hurt so fucking much. I hope she'll forgive me someday .
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